he called today...

can't you see, he makes me happy.
why do you insist on keeping us apart?
why am i not deserving of happiness?
why do you take away someone that i love

i've asked you these questions again and again
i'm not evil, those that have done far worst things are much happier than me
they have their happy ending
what have i done that was so bad that i am stripped of everything
you are determined for me to hit rock bottom

you're playing with me...
i hope you're having fun
cause i am certainly not

what is your motivation...
to see how far you can make me suffer
until i pull the plug?

i'm close to it
very close

one day soon you will get what you want
i'll end it
and you can celebrate
rejoice in the fact that i failed
that i couldn't handle all the "challenges"

you are the all powerful
i'm just a puppet


my heart aches for him daily
you know that