When they stop caring....

I am lucky enough to experienced it twice. thank you.

i cant describe this feeling when you are faced with this uncaringness from the person that you're in love with. and who used to "love" you.

blahhhh........

It is tiring pretending to be all cheerpy and happy. when all you want to do is just stay in your dark room and never come out. I wish i can do that, but alas, there are bills to be paid and i can't do anything much now without sending some signals to the others. They will be wondering why am i disposing my stuff.

I guess my sis can handle the rest after i'm gone. she can either give it to my friends or keep it for herself. i dont really much care. whoever that get my things, i hope they will have much more enjoyment out of it than me.

as i was getting ready for bed last night, i sigh loudly ...thinking whether should i just get on with it now rather than waiting. i can't ....i've made promises...i've comitted myself to some events and also the money later can be given to my mom, cause she sure wont get the insurance...

4 more months to go...what agony.....saw him today and he didnt say a word. never acknowledging my presence.

Pride and Prejudice Revisited

Trying hard not to think about him, Mr. Darcy unfortunately reminds me very much of him. PROUD. I am no Elizabeth Bennet. Everything that repulse Mr. Darcy initially about Elizabeth, is what he feels about me. He is ashamed to be seen with me, doesn't really want me to be his friend. I was the one that insisted, a decision that i regret till the day i die.

which is not going to be very long.......