still on the same track

yes. nothing happened tonight or the past weeks have made me change my mind. I'm still on the same track. Still determined to go ahead with it. this my last entry, i've been looking at my surroundings and asking myself whether i am going to miss any of these....and the answer was NO.
actually, i'm convinced i dont belong in this world. there is no place for me. everybody have their place, their purpose in this life. I'm just drifting around. if i'm not around then there is less one person to polute the environment.

YOU have been good to me. I'm still working. still healthy. I'm being ungrateful. I just dont understand why i am not worthy of love. why can't i be with the person i love.