some people are just lucky

read a blog today about this girl and how she is so thankful to be with her boyfriend, to be loved.

i'm happy for her. she's one of the lucky ones.

you know, i wonder sometimes, what i have done to offend You so. I should not be concerned about other people and how they conduct their life, but it is just that sometimes i feel that they have done much worse things than me and their "punishments" are minor compared to mine.

is that it? i can never do anything right? am i setup to fail? with what i'm equipped with...i can't fight it, You know that.