how do i go on?

tell me...

i'm proceeding as planned. i've wrote emails to be sent to my friends after i'm gone.
next is to write a letter to my sis. a will of some sort, just to tell her who to contact, what to do with my stuff etc.
i've removed all pictures of me online. the rest are uploaded by other people, i dont have controlled over that. i hope after i'm gone they will remove the pictures. i dont have any desire to be remembered. the sooner people forget about me the better.

my heart have not stop pounding since yesterday, ive not slept....i can't sleep. all this while he is oblivious to his effect on me. he is devoid of any compassion. he is selfish to the core.