Dear You,

from the many wrong decisions i've made in my life, this is the one i regretted most. We should not have remained friends. I wanted so much to be with you that i fooled myself into thinking that this could work. I tried so hard to be your friend, and the only reason you endure it is because i can come in handy sometimes. i'm useful, like a tool. that is all i am. you dont even see me as a person, you just see me as this convenient go to person. you regard me just like any machine, tool, equipments that you use that you can yell abuse at. i dont see you doing that to your other friends. you dont call them stupid, you dont curse them. and yet here i am hoping for your love.

i'm totally empty.
i'm a coward for wanting to end it all, but this pain is just unbearable.