strange

i'm strangely upbeat. was it the coffee?
I'm smiling...even laughing while my heart is still pounding away.
I'm sad, disappointed, but cheerful....what is the meaning of this?

denial?
or just my emotions overwhelming me, like the nervous laugh people do when they are
in shock

my heart still aches.
why do i love an idiot.
you just have to take a look at him and you will think that I'm insane
lets just say if we are ever in any dangerous situation, i will be the rescuer. and after rescuing him he will run to save his own skin, he is that much of a coward. never venturing out of his domain, his safe zone.
he is such a scaredly cat, afraid even in his own country. he disguises it by being snobbish, anything or any places that freaks him out are uncool places, when in fact, he is just a scared little kitten.
pathetic fool...
a fool that i love.